Mentor, Where Are You?

I've established that I definately don't have this whole wife/mother thing down. I'm kinda learning on the fly. Which we all do to some extent. Except, I don't have a very good foundation for this thing either. Not that I really "blame" my parents for this. They did the best they could...I'm sure of that. And their parents did the best they thought they could too...but all in all, none of it was really what God has laid out in the Bible...or what functioning, healthy families look like. I know I'm totally not the only one that has that kind of foundation. Too many people come from families where abuse (in all forms) and misconduct are prevalent. Too many of us know what it's like to be sitting here as a mom and wife and not really sure what the next piece of the puzzle is. Because I've never seen it...or if I did, I didn't have the rest of the context, so I wasn't sure where it fit. Titus 2:3-5 says...

The aged women likewise, that they be in behaviour as becometh holiness, not false accusers, not given to much wine, teachers of good things; That they may teach the young women to be sober, to love their husbands, to love their children, To be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God be not blasphemed.

I'd like to have an aged woman to teach me this stuff. I think about it a lot. Our church has a ministry called woman to woman...and literally I've asked two women to do this with me...both said no (for various reasons) and I signed up for the ministry itself to let them match me with someone...but no one called me. What's up with me? Is this not something I can learn? Is there something wrong with me that no one wants to be my friend/mentor?

In high school I had a great mentor. Lenore discipled me before I even really knew what that meant. She met with me in the mornings...even when she was pregnant. I didn't understand how much she invested in me until I had my own kids. I love her dearly even though we've since lost contact. She changed my life. I want to be able to do this for someone else too.

So then my devotional today was also about how we need people in our lives to help to sharpen us. How as moms we need an older mom who's been there...and then mom's who are facing life and challenges at the same time. And of course our other friends. :)

I liked how she said that when she is left to herself, she becomes graceless, exhausted, and sullen...even resenting her children. I do that too. Left alone (like I feel I have been to a certain extent) I become uber needy, exhausted, cruel to myself, critical, and lonely. It's hard to keep loving my husband and children and keeping my home and everything when I get to that point. I'm so glad I have a big God...even when I'm lonely and so needy...I'm glad he can meet my needs. Now if I could just see how...like open my eyes or something.

Anyhow, that's it...